WOMAN!!!

Act IV

I have titled these writings as "acts" because that is the way women are. They act one way at one time then they act another way at another time. I can say that because of the girl that I am trying to get to know. I felt like she was just brushing me aside. I asked her do you want to be with me or not she said that she did but then she never bothers to call me or make an effort to even see me. I like her and would like to get to know her but in my opinion she is not interested in it that much. So I think that right now I can just call her a liar. Harsh? Yes it is but that is my world. I do not play games and I have no time for women that want too. You know honesty is so far removed from this society that it is a shame. Oh do not get me started on honesty in this world IT DOES NOT EXSITST!!!!
I think that I have become a bitter man as I grow older. I try to think back as too why I have become so bitter and all I can think of is because of women.
One cheated with my best friend, one lied and never told the truth, one degraded me, one mentally abused me. Gee no wonder I am bitter towards women. There is very little that I can find positive about the relationships that I have had. Now either I am just a glutton for punishment or there is some thing else wrong. The sad facts are that I have become so bitter that I can not even shed a tear. If I could cry then I would right now, but it is not there and has not been for a long time. Could just get drunk but BTDT do not want to go back there. Get high but BTDT also not worth it. Kill my self....... Well.........No nothing worth killing my self for. Yea right kill my self because of woman.
Life or death not much difference in either one in my book. Not much to live for and not much to die for. Now that is a sorry state to be in!!! I am just a lonely old man that has few friends and no serious relationship and probally never will. I say that because I do not wish to compromise who I am.
I dream of having a woman that would accept me for who I am and not for what I have or can give them. One that will ALWAYS tell the truth, one that is faithful, one that has a brain that God gave her and is using it, one that is constiterate, one that is kind, one that is generous. I think that I am dreaming of a fairy tale and not real life. So I will take my fairy tale life and go too bed. Goodnight Gracie
It is Just Another Beautiful Day in Paradise

posted by Joe @ 12:41 PM